Through every generation of the human race there has been a constant war, a war with fear. Those who have the courage to conquer it are made free and those who are conquered by it are made to suffer until they have the courage to defeat it, or death takes them. ~ Alexander The Great
Dear Inner Circle,
Internal Narcissus is about learning to love yourself, so you can love others. It is about conquering fear. No one can conquer your fear for you. It is an inside job. Some live in constant fear, others have trained it to come and visit when they have time to play with it, or fend it off. Yet there are others who walk around thinking they have none. They are fearless, and unafraid. This is the most dangerous, and I should know, for I was one of them. Hard found work, but is my truth and thankful to have found at all.
Our minds would have us trapped in fear for then we cannot shine bright in the light of our heart centers. Our minds and hearts are connected. For they are in tandem, and this is how we speak to ourselves and to others. Until we free our minds from fears and negativity toward ourselves and others ~ we will never truly harness the full potential of the sun (son).
Remember that there is only one you, and you are your most prized possession. It is never another. If you are not “here” or truly present then you can be neither. You can love nothing or no one truly. It will only be in half-measures. Think about it…everything you want you already have, and it is deep inside of you. You were born with everything you need to live a life you love, and to love another and others without fear. It does take work to remember these gifts. ~ Lest you believe this it will haunt you in ways known or unknown keeping self trapped in a version of you that has sadly became comfortable.
This is why they are called veils. Veils are tricky, for we can kind of see, but cannot see through totally. Creating illusions. Creating barriers and walls. These walls keep others from us, truly, so we are only ever able to offer parts of ourselves. Usually the parts we like, keeping the pieces we do like hidden for as long as we can behind our veils, or so we think (this is the trickiest part).
And why we cannot wait for someone to take our pain away, to save, and or heal us. It is too much of a heavy burden to put on another, and time consuming to try to tend out of sight. Most often we do not know we are carrying these blinders, so we blame other persons, places, and things outside of us (damn veils).
Regardless it is only you that knows your mind and heart, and only you can change your mind, so it is entirely up to you. I guess the question being begged is:
Do you want to behold your life and live it as a gift, or do you want to sit on it as a ride being held prisoner? Navigating the waves of emotional ups and downs on a roller coaster that shifts with every action or reaction from self and others?” It will be which ever you choose, so choose well. And trust yourself to be wherever you are, own where you are without being a burden to anyone else. Being honest about who you are and where you are in your journey, and watch windows of compassion form in harmonizing communication.
This is my call to action, for those that can hear the whispers from deep inside their fortress. Life is what we think-it, and what we hear is us thinking. Until the one day we decide to question our thoughts. Question our likes and dislikes, our deal breakers, or have to be’s and definitely not’s….this is questioning your veils.
My past life was one stuck in false grander, fantasies, and illusions. An unmovable statue of self that had taken years to create having walked through life defiant. Bruised and carrying scars deeper than perceived from childhood and forward until I turned 43. Totally disconnected from reality, unable to love because I did not know that I did not love me, yet. I had not met me yet, either. Only the protected version of me that kept my life in the trappings of not who I wanted to be anymore.
Remember that on any given day we can decide to look for who we came to be. I learned to not run from happenings, but to embrace them. Knowing that one day with patience, persistence, and the purest honesty a reclaiming and acceptance of my life would manifest something good. Oh and did it ~ with the dropping of the cleverest veil of all. The one blocking me by me. The mental bars that had been holding this caveat captive banished while another rose bloomed in the garden of life.
Make no mistake this is an internal war, but also know it is nothing that you cannot handle. Heck you walked that road. Even paved it with your blood, sweat and tears. Making the turn to go all the way back and take a look around inside is everyone’s destiny. Upgrading old coping mechanisms into a new set of mental tools used to calm and soothe self when lightning strikes. Deciding to love and not to fear when life happens. This is what it is to come alive.
Awaken to your authentic self and truest potential. One day, one moment, and one breath at a time. Loosen your wings to steady yourself taking baby steps, so to honor and respect the art and unfolding of a life-journey. While honoring every maddening, exquisite, beautiful, heart-wrenching step taken because it is your’s.
Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye
shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you:
For every one that asketh receiveth; and he that seeketh
findeth; and to him that knocketh it shall be opened.
Love, Kellie J. Wright ~
Voice at IN
Once you concur fear I promise you will conquer death. ~ Quote from the movie Alexander